Dear Grandma Cade and Grandma Lyman:
Yesterday, while I was sitting at a matinee performance of the King and I, I turned around and quickly caught a glimpse of an audience member. In a split second, I had tears streaming down my cheeks. The audience member I gazed on is the grandma of one of the actresses. She was beaming from ear to ear. My brain really didn’t have the time to comprehend my feelings when I saw her – however my heart sent out a flood of tears.
In that microsecond I ached for you both so badly that my emotions were uncontrollable. I sit here now, weeping as well.
Oh how I miss you both so. I miss your gentleness. I miss your soft, thin grandma skin. I miss your smiles. Mostly, though, I miss your loving on me. I miss every little thing you did for me. I miss letters and calls and ………… I just miss your darling selves.
Yesterday, I couldn’t help but think how you would love my girls. How you would hug them gently if you were here. How you would make them feel like the most special little girls in the entire world. How they would adore you. How. A million hows. That’s all. Millions and millions of them.
I promise that I’m doing the best I can to be a good mama to give them all they need. I can’t give them you, though. And so they do suffer without even knowing.
I promise……..you would adore them and they would adore you.